New Ballet boots

Wearing my new Ballet Boots

Sleeping on my bed in my great cell

Thank you Mistress

Shibari

TMS Party Outfit 18/06/2011

Mistress having Fun

I should say we BOTH having FUN

Send in The Clowns 11/06/2011

Theme to the TMS party

The song "Send in the Clowns" is one of my favorite song's, but this song is not about clowns, its a play on word's describing the singer failed love's, the composer said it should have been "Send in the fools" but the word fool didn't have the same ring as clowns, but the word clown does mean fool.

TMS School theme Party 07/05/2010

Me & Mistress Loes getting ready for TMS school party tonight

Me in Latex, and locked cuffs

My wrist are locked securley with cuffs behind my back

I'm wearing Latex hood and the new Face gag mask from Restrained Freedom

I look up to the Sky,

and dream of freedom,

but in my own mind

do I really want freedom?

Story of Bondage/Breath Play

My day started very normal, but I knew by 3 pm today things will be far from normal. With butterflies in the pit of my stomach, I sat staring at piece of paper with written instruction from Mistress. I was to be showered, and dressed in tight fitting latex cat suit, and to be waiting on my knees at the playroom door at 3 pm sharp.

At 2.40 pm I started to pour my naked body into the tight fitting latex cat suit, and made certain it had no creases anywhere, and at five minutes before 3 pm I took up my position on my knee's at the playroom door, and waited.

Within 2 minutes of kneeling Mistress arrived, and walked straight pass me. At precisely 3 pm Mistress opened the door and called me inside, I remained on my knees and crawled inside, but Mistress ordered me to stand up once inside the room.

Mistress began to place me into a tight leather straight jacket, the smell of the leather was very strong, and caused my sense go into a spin.

I began to slide my arms into the sleeves, and Mistress spun me around to buckle up the many straps at the back, my arms remained down by my side. Mistress continued to tighten each strap, and place a brass lock on each buckle. With the strong smell of the leather, and the click of the locks my heart began to race, and pushed my senses into over drive, then Mistress suddenly grabbed the two straps that had been dangling free on the bottom edge of the jacket, and pulled these straps up between my legs very tight, at this point i was glad of the latex cat suit as I felt as if my pussy was being exposed to the world by the pressure of the straps that had been placed each side of my pussy, and like the other straps locks were applied.

Then suddenly my arms were pulled around my body as if I was hugging myself, the strap like many others was tighten and locked into place, Mistress came around the front, and started to buckle a strap over my forearms in front of me, Mistress pulled this strap really tight, again once buckled a lock was applied. I was now locked into this jacket, I tried to move, but found very little movement.

Next Mistress came towards me with a gas mask, and began placing this on me. The first thing I noticed was the glass was blacked out and could not see out. Mistress began to pull the strap tight to my face and head, after the straps had been tighten all I could hear was the sound of my own breathing. I was startled when Mistress placed her hands on my shoulder, and began to guide me along, unable to see but with her guidance I was now lying flat on a table. I began to feel straps being placed on my body from my ankle to my chest, these strap were pulled very tight, and I realised i could not move at all.

I now lay strapped to a table, not being able to move at all, my senses were working both way of sublime panic to ecstasy, it became a struggle to control the panic, but I heard Mistress voice "my girl you shall spend the next four hours in bondage" upon hearing her voice the panic stopped but hearing I was to spend four hours like this, didn't help, I just tried to take deep breaths to calm the panic.

I began to lose all sense of time, and was feeling very hot inside the latex and leather jacket but worse was my face inside the gas mask I could feel beads of sweat running down my face, and being unable to wipe my face made it uncomfortable, and some times the sweat would run into my eye's and sting them. With all sense of time gone for me I suddenly felt something being attached to the mask, I was still getting air, but within moment it became hard to breath in air, this caused me to panic and struggle, Mistress at this point placed a hand on my body, and lent forward and whispered into my ear “be calm my little bondage girl, SSSSHH now, You will be able to breath but its restricted, and you have to work hard to breath my girl”, I eased my struggle a little the mask began feel like it was stuck to my face as if glued on, but then I found no Air, I tried to scream but couldn't’t and my lungs started to burn, as suddenly the air had gone it was back, and I took in great breaths, this made my heart race faster, I tried to concentrate on breathing normal, but found it a struggle, I could tell when I was getting fresh air as it cooled my face, but when there was no air, it made my head spin wildly, but during this my body was being turned on, and my pussy began to ache, my mind went into a dilemma, I wanted freedom to touch myself, but then I needed air to breath, I couldn't work out which I wanted more air to breath or to have freedom to touch.

Because of the struggle for air I didn't notice the vibrator being placed between my legs, until it was switched on, which literally sent me to subspace and the other world. My Body gave way and exploded into Orgasm heaven.

I began to wake up slowly, but found I was still in darkness and unable to move, and my body still bound, and with the gas mask on face still. I was breathing in good clean air, but then my body began to ached violently as reminder, and I began to wonder how much longer I had left before being released from this bondage.

Still no idea of time, but then suddenly felt the strap being removed from me that held me to the table, and next the the gas mask was being removed, The bright lights of the room blinded me but mostly the cold air stung my face, but extremely happy the mask had been removed, Mistress gently wiped my face with a towel and gave me a smile, I immediately said " Thank you Mistress"

Pictures

At Home TMS Pj's party Shibari Great day,and Very Proud

Bondage Life

Bondage gives me such a buzz, I have tried many time's to understand why, but hey put me in the nut house with straight jacket on I still be happy lol. There was an Open disscussion on TMS sim, and some thing was said about Punishment, in that the guilty person would enjoy it, than consider it to be a form of punishment, which brings me back to my long suffering comment. I consider being out of bondage a form of punishment, and being placed in Bondage as a form of enjoyment. I still don't understand certain people who moan or complain when a Mistress does something to them? Mistress Loes brought me something speacial last night, and I hope may be she will have this locked on me for a very long time, only allow me free speech if she so desires

March 2011

So glad to see the end of March, it was a lousy month for me, don't know why but it just was.